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Oday28
Sailing is not necessarily a new venture, but a traumatic experience on one of my first sailing outings has got me scared of my "dream." I'm betting there are others who have had a similar experience or know someone who has and can offer some thoughts, ideas or consolations.My dream is to be a live-aboard for 5 years and to summer in Maine and/or Nova Scotia and winter in the Carribean. Toward that end, the family and I are working on our sailing skills on our new boat. The spouse and I have taken a 4-day basic keelboat class and are trying to get out on it regularly with other real sailers. Here's the problem.My first venture sailing was about 14 years ago. A Hobie Cat 16. Not the right boat to learn to sail, but it's what was at-hand. A friend, Paul, who "knew how to sail" took me out one March day to a local fresh water lake. No wind to speak of, so we just tootled around for a bit. After a while, the wind picked up, so off we went. On the far side of the lake, we noticed the skies darkening and all the other boats had vanished. Picking up on the obvious clues, we started back. Then, the big wind hit. My friend told me that this was the right kind of wind to fly on one hull, so close hauled we go. Just as we are beginning to fly a hull, a big gust of wind comes along and slams us upside down. Now, this is March, and the water is pretty damned cold. Keeping panic at bay, we get her righted again. Paul says he pulled the rudder instead of pushing it, and wouldn't make that mistake again. Thoroughly soaked and a little spooked, off we went again. Sure enough, same mistake was made, and he completely turtled her. Really wet and seriously cold, we didn't have the strength to right her in the wind. By good fortune, a passing motorboat saw we were in trouble and help right us. Once righted, Paul is ordered to the front of the boat, and I'm on the tiller and headed home WITHOUT coming anywhere near a close point of sail.Several years have passed, but now I have this panicky response to a significant amount of wind and am really on edge when we get on any point of sail closer than a beam reach. The creaking and the groaning of the boat...the heeling...the surge of power when the wind really gets into the sails, etc. I feel like a panic-attack is coming, and I really dread close-hauling.Honestly, this would seem to intrude on the dream, but it doesn't. But getting on the boat, I get really edgy. When the wind picks up, I get rather nervous. And when a closer point of sail is called for, I am beyond cautious and not enjoying myself much at all. Other people call it fun, but I just don't have any confidence in what I'm doing on a close point of sail. I've been thinking I can just keep training my way through it and get used to it. I've even considered therapy. Has anyone had a similar experience and offer some advise? Thanks in advance for any help you can offer.